I over-apologize, and it is very hard for me to resist the urge to apologize. Apologizing reinforces my guilt and the feeling that I have done something wrong. If I haven’t done something wrong, I don’t need to apologize!
I am very uncomfortable with most physical contact.
I like to be prepared for anything at all times.
Being sick is triggering for me.
My self harm serves multiple functions in different situations. It grounds me when I’m dissociating, it satisfies my anger at myself and guilt and shame, and it sometimes helps me dissociate.
Everyone doesn’t hate me.
Learning new skills and healing both take lots of time, and I need to radically accept that I won’t be better in an instant, or by the end of the summer.
My body posture is often closed off and protective. I am working on being more aware of my posture and lowering my shoulders, uncrossing my arms, and opening my hands up when there is no threat. This teaches my body that I am safe.
Sometimes my emotions are justified, and I need to deal with them and not push them away.
There might be a part 3 at some point. 🙂 (here is part 1)